Ramadhan is coming......this is my first Ramadhan fasting experience in field working environment, last year I still had my Ramadhan fasting in a college environment along together with my friends.
I missed those times, rough and tough times actually, because we don't have enough money. I remembered that we have to "hunt" for fast breaking from one mosque to another for 30 days, some of my friends made Ramadhan greetings card to sell, not to mention we have to attend class in the morning, sleepy hours....ha ha ha...
By doing this actually we can save some money for the next month, and it was a great gift for every each and one of us.
Having friends in the same condition and vission really built my spiritual improvement, we did shalat tarawih together, jamaah shalat together,struggling to hunt fast breaking and sahur together..everything together. And I have to admit that those kind of togetherness really motivated me to do the best for my spiritual life, but now i have to do it alone, nobody will remind me to have tarawih, etc....all by my self.....and it was hard for me to motivate myself cause its part of myself so called culture. I can say that I always live in a comfort zone, but now I have to live outside those comfort zone, it's tough but sure will try hard.
And hopefully this year I can finish my fasting month as a better person for me, my family, my friends, my religion...sighh...Hopefully.
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